Dear Ruth Carmela Zamielle 9

 

16 July 2020

Dear Ruth Carmela Zamielle,

Happy Birthday my baby love. 

It feels like every time I come home (and that’s every day), you have grown a little more. I am afraid that if I am away even for just a short while, I would have missed something. I am scared that you are growing up so fast I might not be able to catch up with you. Whenever I look at you, I miss all those times when you were small and I can carry you with my arms, or put you on my shoulders no matter how long the walk. 

I miss all those years we would walk hand in hand with Mommy because you were afraid to let go. Now, quickly, you are learning to be on your own. You can now walk, stroll, run, and have fun pretty much by yourself. It scares me to think that in a few more years, you might be totally on your own, and you no longer have a need for us. I am just consoled by the thought that we have taught you well, and that we have given you the best we can to prepare you for the road ahead. 

I am sorry my little princess for all those times when I was away, and not being able to join you or see you during your happiest moments. I am sorry for not being there to play with you or watch you play the piano or dance ballet. Know that wherever I go, you and Mommy are always in my thoughts and in my mind. I think of you whenever I eat good food, or see a nice place. I remember you whenever I am happy, wishing you were both there to share my happiness and laughter.

You are a wonderful kid- sweet, thoughtful, and kind. You are everything a parent can ask for. You always bring smile to me and I always look forward to seeing you. You never fail to impress me with your wit and smart retorts. How I wish we could spend all day just telling silly stories, or playing games you invented. And I am sorry that sometimes I beat you in rock, papers, and scissors.

I just want you to know that I am so proud of you. I wasn’t as good as you when I was your age. You are indeed a better version of me, of your mommy. And no matter what you become, you will always be our most precious jewel. 

I hope you will have another memorable day today, surrounded by family and our extended family. I know you are a great kid with a noble heart just like your mom. 

Don’t forget to be always respectful and loving especially to your Mamita, Mommy, and Tita Mommy. Love them with all of your heart because they love you more than you will ever know. Always pray for your Daddy Lo in heaven too.

Go on my child. Enjoy your day and all the days and years ahead. Be happy. 

If you have any problems, do not ever hesitate to tell me and your mommy. We will always be your greatest and best friends. We will always be your fan and supporter, and we will always be with you. 

Happy 9th Birthday! We love you so much.

Love,

Daddy

To My Wife on Valentine's Day 2021

14 February  2021

Dearest Love,

We have been celebrating Valentine’s day together for more than a decade now, yet I feel I haven’t  run out of things to say to you. I haven’t told you enough how much I love you so let me tell you again and again in my own ways.

I Love You.

I want to tell you that there is nothing compared to the feeling when we are together, whenever or wherever we are. Yes we fight, and fight badly, and I am sure we are going to fight every now and then but those instances are nothing compared to the good times we had and the good things we do together. I know that you will always be there for me, and I will always be there for you no matter how many times you send me away. I know that we will never be apart for more than a day without missing each other and looking for the company we give each other. It always makes me feel good that together, we can overcome any challenge no matter big or small, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything else. I want to feel that for the rest of my days. I hope you feel the same way too.

I Love You.

You might not believe it all the time but you know what? There’s absolutely no place I would rather be than beside you. I do not sleep well whenever I am away because sleeping next to you, with your hand clasp on mine, is the best I could ever imagine. Even the worst nights are the best because I know that when I wake up, you are there beside me. No matter how badly my day would end, I know that it will always get better once I lay my back on the bed with you. Corny as it sounds but it is really my happy place. 

I Love You.

I hate the feeling of going away without you, no matter how near or far. Whether it’s work or fun, I wish we could always ride the car together, or walk together, or bike together. There’s a deep sense of security, calmness, and happiness I feel whenever we are alone together. I have already told you this but I do not notice the passing of time when we are out there talking to each other especially during long drives. I want you and I need you by my side, holding my hand and just being my world, my universe.  

I Love You.

When I am alone, I sometimes find myself looking at our pictures together and reliving all the great times we had. And I can’t help but smile whenever I remember the story behind those pictures, how exactly you looked, and how exactly you talked or felt. I think of you all the time no matter where I am. But I think of you more whenever I see nice things, eat good food, or meet people that I know you would love to meet. I can’t help but say to myself “sana nandito ka para matikman mo ‘to…sana nakita mo to kasi alam ko gusto mo ‘to”… I know that you feel the same way whenever we are apart because you know very well what I like or love, what I desire, and what I want or need. Indeed, you are an amazing, smart, and wonderful woman. I am lucky to have you as my co-pilot. You are my navigator, my guide, my compass, my direction. 

I love you.

I might not be able to tell you, or make you feel that I really I love you all the time, but deep inside my heart, to the core of my bones, and the fiber of my being, I do love you.  You inspire me to become a better person, a better man, a better Dad, and better husband each day. You drive me to become better at what I do because you believe in me and my abilities, and you know I haven’t peaked yet. You know that I can always do better and beat myself, and be the best at what I do. Thank you for being my one true inspiration- You and Ruthie. I don’t deserve you- your goodness, your patience, your support, your love and care, but I am glad we have one another. Thank you so much.

I Love You 

I promise to love you each day in ways more than words can describe, in ways only you and I would understand. I promise to always hold your hands wherever we are, I will always be proud of you. You are the love of my life, my Soulmate, my Best Friend, and my Partner in life. I will always look forward to every day being with you..hanggang sa pag tanda natin…I will always stay by your side no matter what—good times or bad times.  

I Love You.

I hope and pray that you will always be healthy and wealthy, awesome and amazing, beautiful and wonderful. I want to be awesome like you too so that you will always be proud of me

Happy Valentine’s Day My Love.

I love you.