16 July 2020
Dear Ruth Carmela Zamielle,
Happy Birthday my baby love.
It feels like every time I come home (and that’s every day), you have grown a little more. I am afraid that if I am away even for just a short while, I would have missed something. I am scared that you are growing up so fast I might not be able to catch up with you. Whenever I look at you, I miss all those times when you were small and I can carry you with my arms, or put you on my shoulders no matter how long the walk.
I miss all those years we would walk hand in hand with Mommy because you were afraid to let go. Now, quickly, you are learning to be on your own. You can now walk, stroll, run, and have fun pretty much by yourself. It scares me to think that in a few more years, you might be totally on your own, and you no longer have a need for us. I am just consoled by the thought that we have taught you well, and that we have given you the best we can to prepare you for the road ahead.
I am sorry my little princess for all those times when I was away, and not being able to join you or see you during your happiest moments. I am sorry for not being there to play with you or watch you play the piano or dance ballet. Know that wherever I go, you and Mommy are always in my thoughts and in my mind. I think of you whenever I eat good food, or see a nice place. I remember you whenever I am happy, wishing you were both there to share my happiness and laughter.
You are a wonderful kid- sweet, thoughtful, and kind. You are everything a parent can ask for. You always bring smile to me and I always look forward to seeing you. You never fail to impress me with your wit and smart retorts. How I wish we could spend all day just telling silly stories, or playing games you invented. And I am sorry that sometimes I beat you in rock, papers, and scissors.
I just want you to know that I am so proud of you. I wasn’t as good as you when I was your age. You are indeed a better version of me, of your mommy. And no matter what you become, you will always be our most precious jewel.
I hope you will have another memorable day today, surrounded by family and our extended family. I know you are a great kid with a noble heart just like your mom.
Don’t forget to be always respectful and loving especially to your Mamita, Mommy, and Tita Mommy. Love them with all of your heart because they love you more than you will ever know. Always pray for your Daddy Lo in heaven too.
Go on my child. Enjoy your day and all the days and years ahead. Be happy.
If you have any problems, do not ever hesitate to tell me and your mommy. We will always be your greatest and best friends. We will always be your fan and supporter, and we will always be with you.
Happy 9th Birthday! We love you so much.
Love,
Daddy
